15 Jan 2007

Unfounded Fears of Rejection / Apple Internship, Part I

Have you ever wanted something badly enough that you were nervous to even try for it, for fear of rejection? I’ve been thinking about applying for an internship at Apple for at least a year. Because they don’t visit the University of Rochester on their fall recruiting trips, I knew it had to be me that took the first step. I acquired the email address of an Apple recruiter about a month ago, but it has sat unused on my desk through school break, when I had more than enough time to compose an email and update my resume.

I kept putting it off, however, and it wasn’t until today that I realized that I was so worried about not getting a job there that I hadn’t done anything to try to get the job. The same thing happened to me earlier this year. I really wanted to work for the Admissions Office at school as a tour guide, but I was quite nervous about what I had heard was a grueling application process. Yes, the process was awful, especially during final exams, but I came away from it more experienced with interviews and public speaking, and I got the job.

I’ve never been a person to give up on great opportunities just because there is risk of failure. However, I have had such a string of successes in my life, most recently with scholarships and college applications, that I feel like at some point I’m going to lose out on a big one. But this is no reason to stop trying.

There are so many reasons I want to work at Apple, first and foremost because I love their products, but also because I want a new experience. I’ve been in Burlington the past two summers working at IBM, and I want a chance to explore California and meet some new people.

So let me announce it publicly. (deep breath) I’m applying for an internship at Apple this summer. I’ll let you know how it goes.